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вЂњBut I will visit sometimes,вЂќ he adds, not wanting to appear heartless. WhatвЂ™s the point?вЂќДЄs always, my fatherвЂ™s reason overrides his sensitivity. вЂњShe wonвЂ™t even know if I come or what day it is. вЂњI wonвЂ™t be visiting her every day when she goes in,вЂќ he says. HeвЂ™s always clung to logic like a nun clutching a rosary, and the scattered beads in my motherвЂ™s head are rolling in every direction but straight.

One of them has to crash, and my moneyвЂ™s on him - a nervous, fretful mess, undone by my motherвЂ™s break from reality. He wants prophetic certainty.Д«ut how should we know? AlzheimerвЂ™s is a tricky beast, encroaching without a schedule. вЂњHow much longer do you think she has?вЂќ he asks. He wants release, even if it means giving up the house. Not divorce, but a fresh start, where he can tread water until Alice - wife, great-grandmother, difficult person - goes into full-time care. We donвЂ™t know how heвЂ™s done it, 57 years in that house, but my motherвЂ™s dementia is the last straw on the bumpy back of wedlock, and he wants out. Now IвЂ™m finally writing, but I donвЂ™t tell him, afraid my excavations will break his ancient heart. Less boast-worthy is the Financial Planner, though heвЂ™s kept our parents solvent through a long retirement.ДЄs for me, his only daughter, heвЂ™s never said much about my years as a missionary. He tags us by phone, taking pride in his artistic sons: the Painter, the Guitarist, the Cellist. My father has never connected the dots on our staggered exodus. Only one brother stayed in Alberta, choosing a city beyond my motherвЂ™s reach. We blamed our migration on the cityвЂ™s endless winters and whisper-thin summers, and on the pull of Elsewhere. Was it Edmonton we hated, or the nest that hatched us? No matter. The cold, industrial city was not for us.

After a lifetime away, IвЂ™m back in Edmonton, this outpost long deserted by his children. My pale face staring back as I balanced on the sink to reach the mirror. The medicine cabinet, crammed with baby aspirin, calamine lotion, and viscous bottles of rose-water-glycerine.

#Home depot cabinet planner cracked#

Without tripping, I fall into a well of memories: oil refineries lurking beyond the curtains and the howling wind on winter nights when I cracked the window to vent steam. The floor warps under threadbare mats, no longer rubberized: a tripping hazard that hasnвЂ™t killed anyone - yet. The sink, a topographic map of hardened scum, threatens to collapse on an ancient hamper. Mildewed curtains shade the toilet, a nasty mess of orangey brown. Marilyn Kriete | Longreads | April 2022 | 46 minutes (8,273 words)